Sickness that comes slowly without being noticed.

You will be surprised to know the sickness am actually talking about because you won't expect what am referring to. I know right now you are thinking about a lot of  sickness in this world but you are going far.
Yes, I know the usual meaning that comes to mind when sickness is mentioned but am sorry to disappoint you cos am referring to BOREDOM.
Feeling tired and impatient because you have nothing to do kind of makes one feel sick, bored with or annoyed about something that has been happening for a long time and wanting it to stop. These things usually starts slowly without you even noticing until you get fed up.

 I think that is how I feel, yes am sick and tired of staying at home doing nothing. I was thinking that I will make good use if my holidays to achieve something better but I guess I did not. I just keep repeating things again and again like am moving in circles. I feel like am losing hope within me even when I have tried encouraging myself. My dear this life is not easy at all if you can feel it. I can only tell myself that there is always a story behind every successful man. All these my years of trying to become somebody successful are my years of experience and building my story to tell the world.

This long vacation is kind of worse for me, I can't believe this is really happening to me right now. I feel like crying but that's not the solution. Thinking about my life and how boring this Holiday is for me with nothing working out for me is making me feel a little depressed about my future. I still tell myself that God is in control but you know we are humans and won't cease to think about the future even when things are good.
Seriously, this long vacation made me to at least experience what is like to be bored. I used to say am bored or boredom has killed but it never did. Then I was just getting a tip of what is like and maybe am still getting a tip of it but being home alone is another side of it. Am so sick to death of all the things am used to doing at home, oh my God! I mean every single thing I do  no exception. You can imagining that to know how critical my case is and you can only understand if you have been in this situation before. I know someone might say am wired or maybe am not OK but am damn serious and I know that am not the only one out there in the world that have this experience.

Hmm, you might be wondering "ok don't you have siblings at all". Yes, of course I have siblings and I am the third child among five children in my family. Pause for awhile, I want to say something. To me and my one and only sister,wondering about something means going to wonder land with that funny face having your eyes looking upwards like this 😌tho it can also mean for us that you are saying rubbish(the emoji). I really miss her and her wahala 😉😉 sister like no other.
Let's continue but am tempted to ask where did I stop tho I is not necessary here. My siblings were usually around especially my sister but this time is just me,my brother and my parents at home but they leave every morning for work with my brother and come back in the evening making me stay alone during the day. Yea, I know you might be thinking is not home alone besides is not even a big deal because I still have people around but my dear you're not in my shoes to know how it feels like. This really got me to the point of getting lazy day by day. Let's say if my laziness was fifty percent, it has increased to seventy five percent if not more than. I feel like am in a small deadly dull town wandering around aimlessly. Nobody to talk to, nobody to annoy or will annoy me, nobody to laugh with or play with. Chia! 🙆Is this how boredom is, hmm I pity old people that stay alone at home especially in the village. No wonder they need people around, attention and care because boredom dey break bones oo. I could remember when my grandaunt was staying with us, she was always looking for things to say :get this, what's that , come close, where are you going, let me see or even tell you stories you are tired of listening to. Then we felt she was disturbing and looking for fault but I get it now. Lol, we miss those her drama now when we remember her.

Guess what came to my mind now, just imagined how housewives use to cope tho their condition might not be like mine but is similar or maybe worse than mine. Hmm, with this am really happy that I have experience or maybe have a feeling of what is like to be a housewife even tho am not. I swear that life is not funny at all and i don't wish any of my friend or my sister that because you will be getting lazy like I said before and things will seem a little difficult because you will get tired of the same routine everyday of your life, Ahh! Human no be machine naa, that you will program to do a particular thing.
Anyway, I think is rare these days to see a housewife with the way our economy is. Everyone is struggling hard to make it in life be it male or female so there is no room for housewife, that was then things were good.

Recently, I met one of my primary school friend that stays nearby which I usually goes to his place if am going somewhere and he sometimes comes to mine if he is that bored but it still doesn't help matters because everywhere is just dry and worse if there is no light. Something got me when I was discussing with him and he said "am tired of staying at home, I want to travel and go some where else". In my mind I laughed, so am not the only one that feel the same. The funny thing, is that I have said that a lot to him and each time I tell him that he will ask me" travel to where" and I will answer ,I don't know just want to change environment.
This made me realise that things keep changing no matter hard it is to believe. Enjoy every moment of your life because it may never come back.

Lol, I remembered the conversation I had with my course rep which I uploaded and I laughed at myself. Hei ya, am now feeling like is a punishment tho is still part of it shaa cos I don't like stressing myself.
Last last, I have to enjoy it is just a matter of time besides I will soon be going back to school.
This is all I can say about my boring holiday experience maybe might still add more if necessary.
One more thing, thinking of the title to give my story 💭 . Thanks for reading 😇😇, I will sort that myself.
I hope you found something interesting about this story,felt penning it down to share for people to read and you can also do same dear.
I want to send shout out to my wonderful and lovely family, my small world and my muse.
Bye for now.💃💃💃💃
Kisses 😘
Love u all. 😍😍😍😍